makes me feel like the most uncoordinated ever.







stupid gravel.  :(

SENIOR PROJECT CRAP IS OVER!!!!!


*sniff*

I feel so....so.....happy.



the only thing that kinda sucks is we're moving. I'm gonna miss everyone here...it means I don't have the chance to randomly pop in and visit after I graduate ;___;


I'm gonna miss Sensei and Michelle the most, I think. Everyone else is leaving, but they're stuck here.
Good thing Michelle and I are going to Japan together...and we might even go with Sensei :)



The plus side: I'll be a HECK of a lot closer to Seattle :)

hey~~ well, I figured it was easier to just post it on blogger.



It's here if you wanna take a look! :D
Sorry, I put a LOT of random crap and dislcaimers in there....but hopefully the main details are worth your time xD

oops. I took forever to update again. :X




It may take me a while to give you the details, but just so you know I had the BEST BIRTHDAY EVER this year :)


And it was entirely unexpected. Thank you so much for all of you who contributed to the awesome grandure so far~~~ :3

How long has it
Been since you felt it
Welling inside you
The light on the surface
The dreams deep inside you
The truth all around you
The sun on your face...

How long has it
Been since you saw it
Clearer than glass
A star in the darkness
Sun in the rain
Dancing in moonlight
Releasing your past...


Step into sunglight
Take in the rays
Forget what's behind you
Take in pure grace

Let the scars show
You've walked down that road
You know now
You're home



There's a road I walked
Shaded by black
Everyday I tried
To escape, free
But the trees groaned
And reached for my eyes
To blind me from hope

I need eyes to see
What my heart will not
Or so I said
As time dragged on






Walking alone
On a battered road
Screaming alone
To the night
Running alone
To my demise
Crawling alone
Bloodied feet
kissing stone
Dieing alone





Someone, hear my screams!
Save my from this wretched street!
But no one hears a tree fall
When no one is there to listen.

Alone, alone, alone.
Decaying alone.
Alone, alone, alone.
My bones turn to dust.


Alone, alone, alone.
Fading alone.
Alone, alone, alone.
My bones are no more.


Alone, alone, alone.
Always alone.
Forever more forever-less.


Walking alone
On a battered road
Screaming alone
To the night
Running alone
To my demise
Crawling alone
Bloodied feet
kissing stone
Dieing alone


Alone, alone, alone.
Always alone.
Forever more forever-less.




Again! Why again?
Why do I wail for no one?
Why do I wait for someone!
no one will come!
Just me and that damned abyss!
I mean nothing to life,
nothing to earth,
nothing to dust,
nothing to death.






nothing....yet something.
something to the ground
that raises me up from my grave.
Something to the sky that's smiling at me
Something to the strings of the sun
that raise me as cranes
over the heads of that road
that once killed me


Something to the one
That's looking me in the eyes--
not like a dieing pathetic
disease-ridden rodent of the crops--
but as a friend...a companion...a lover....
So intimate those eyes
So full of some emotion that will never have a name
So full of a life I've never dreamed I could know...




So beautiful are those eyes
Eyes more brilliant than the sun
Rising steadily beyond green hills
Above the calm blue sea
Stretching out its warmth
To color the clouds in pinks and blues and golds
More amazing than the heights of the canyons
Deeper than the ocean's deepest reach


So beautiful, that face.




So beautiful, the face of God.





How long has it
Been since you felt it
Welling inside you
The light on the surface
The dreams deep inside you
The truth all around you
The sun on your face...

How long has it
Been since you saw it
Clearer than glass
A star in the darkness
Sun in the rain
Dancing in moonlight
Releasing your past...


Step into sunglight
Take in the rays
Forget what's behind you
Take in pure grace

Let the scars show
You've walked down that road
You know now
You're home

There's a burden in my soul
Luggage I'm begging to let go
But a wall's in front of me
It makes me blind from liberty

Let there be a way
Some way I can say...




I'm trapped inside myself
Behind a barrage of my own fire
And I'm dieing to get out
Before my time expires

Let the tears roll down my face
Is there no escape...



I'm bleeding in my heart
These pools of blood fill my lungs
I'm crawling for my life
Have I no strength left to stand?
I cry out in the dark
The last of my gasping breaths
All that is within me
Is bleeding, dieing, gone



This wall is taunting me
Always in front of me
I've done all I can do
How long must I wait for you

Let the tears roll down my face
Is there no escape...


God why have you left me
To face this agony alone




I'm bleeding in my heart
These pools of blood fill my lungs
I'm crawling for my life
Have I no strength left to stand?
I cry out in the dark
The last of my gasping breaths
All that is within me
Is bleeding, dieing, gone



Grind the thorns into Your head
Mock the only Love that suffers in my stead
Slam the nails into Your precious blood
Watch the tree strung high
It's still not enough
Spit on grace that adorns me
With such embrace that I felt no earthly fear
Slap the face of what mattered most
To the little child weeping on her knees
The little child chained inside of me...



You never left
When I didn't feel the warmth
of your heart beating next to mine
I should have known
The only wall containing me
Is the wall that I build myself
How could I forget
Tearing down a fastened wall
Requires the greatest sacrifice of all
Why did I let go?
When I lost comfort's touch
I blamed you for all the pain I suffered


How could I not see
It was the moment you died for me...

As the sun rises above
I'm flooded with blameless love.

I heard a voice through the discord
A deluge of passersby
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by

I swear I'll know your face in the crowd
And I'll hear your voice so loud
When you're whispering

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another

Here's my kiss to betray
Desperate to brush the lips of grace
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I lied?

Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me
Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger
Hey unloving
I will love you
And will love you

Jesus I'm ready to come home
I'm ready to come
Jesus I'm ready to come home
Hey Unfaithful
Hey Ungraceful
Hey unloving
I will love you

Discography (w/ downloads.)
(Right click - 'Save As'. Please delete after 72 hours .. because the law says so. Even though I know you won't. xD)

((And, yes, I own these CDs.))



mp3

2006 Summer Town
Without you


Paradox
Paradox
On the Road
Are You Ready


Rhapsody
Rhapsody
Vampire


Scorpio - Korean
Scorpio
Tears (TRAX Vers.)
Beat Traitor
Knife
Over the Rainbow (Piano Vers.)
Over the Rainbow (Rock Vers.)


Scorpio - Japanese
Scorpio
Tears (TRAX Vers)
Beat Traitor
Knife


Blaze Away
Blaze Away
End of the World
It's a MONSTER



Videos, Clips, PVs


[Clip] TRAX - Kangta vs Heejun show [Rose, Attack, Jay, Junsu]



[Clip] TRAX - studio_sept2005

[Clip] TRAX_-_Signing_Japan




[Clip] The TRAX - Special - Star TV Message '05

[SP] Barks Message


[PV] TRAX - paradox

[CM] TRAX - Paradox (Jap)

[PS] Trax - Paradox Booklet Photoshoot

[PS] TRAX - Jacket Photosession 2 (Paradox)



[PV] TRAX - Rhapsody

[LV] TRAX - Rhapsody + Talk_050429_popjam



[PV] TRAX - Scorpio [Japanese]

[PV] TRAX - Beat_Traitor

[PV] TRAX - over the rainbow




[PV] Trax - Blaze_Away



[Clip] 060624 sm summer album MV news

I feel like dancing. I don't know why I have to write a blog on it, but I feel like dancing.

ok.

bye.